Obersturmführer

OK, it is currently very late while on the PC but I'm wide awake anyway, so here goes XD The reason I'm posting is because I managed to get some Umah cosplay photos earlier yeserday...Evening XD They came out better than I expected ^^ The 2 below were my favourite ones to put online at this point. The make-up was done by my friend Abi, who also took the photos, but I'll have to learn to do the make-up myself on the day of the expo! XD Who knows. All I know is, is that I'm glad to have cosplayed from my favourite game series of Legacy of Kain.

   

Well have come back from house sitting for  2 weeks and it feels ok to be back but...I miss the peace and quiet with a loved one already XD Because I live in a noisy house with no room and a baby, it's horrible torture. But it gave me chance to update a lot of artwork, because I wasn't drawing for ages. So I spammed deviantArt with tons of work. Plus I also had access to a scanner round a friends on account that mine isn't working.

Also my Grandad was taken into hospital for his hip operation a couple days ago. So mum is running round like a headless chicken after him and my idiot sister and her baby. And my sister, bitch Natasha, is still argumentative. It's pathetic and she makes me, and everyone else truly unhappy. We have to move out soon, because our landlord wants the place for his daughter or something, so when the council re-home us, I hope that we get seperate places, I really do. James and Natasha with my neice can get a place, and so me and mum get a place of our own too. Hopefully. Natasha just sits around and does nothing all day and never cleans up after herself, let alone her own washing. So mum has to constantly help her and doesn't get any time to herself. I feel really sorry for her. But I try my best to help out with washing and house work when I can. But I have a life too, and mum's ok with that. But when everyone argues, Natasha shouts at me saying I never help. I do more than her in an hour to what she does in a week!! Stupid bitch. Vile, horrible girl with no brain.

Oh well, I'm gonna leave it at that. I also should start my new college next month. Just waiting for a letter with times and dates, yada, yada, yada. Hopefully, I'll be able to get EMA again, since I've been skint. Oh well. I plan to find a job while starting college x

Hmmm. Kuroshitsuji. Popular or what?!!! Just browsing some cosplay websites this evening, and on cosplay island it seems that a LO of ppl are planning multiple characters here and there, but so surprising how this great new anime is getting so much attention XD I guess it's got an addictive trend. And I do love it myself! But even my local cosplayers here in Colchester are planning and have done a Kuro cosplay ^^ Finally an anime I like is loved by most of my friends! I guess an anime can spread like wild fire. Like Hellsing. I dunno. I'm just really proud ^^ And the cosplay is almost done. Just a few minor financial problems here and there, but it rolls over eventually. Beause I still want to get a new pair of trousers with belt loops and those God-damn sexy red platform boots XD (I'm going to die in those boots but who cares?!)

So, to sum it all up, what do I have so far? If I can remember?

1) Dress shirt
2) Red & white neck ribbon
3) Red glasses
4) Red spectacle chain (hand made)
5) Brown waist coat
6) Red wig
7) Black trousers (which I'll renew)

Checklist: I still need to style a fringe into the red wig which i bought from Wig Fashion on Ebay. I could have bought a proper Grell wig, but it was like £50 without postage alone, so I went for the £20 one with free P&P. But to be honest I don't trust my scissor skills. Where's Edward Scissorhands when you need him?! Oh well. I will do it at some point. As for the trousers, the reason why I want to get new ones is because I want some with belt loops. Because Grell has a wallet chain. Or whatever he uses it for lol. And I have a chain...with 3 rows of spikes! It looks like barbed wire...But is metal links! It's (now excuse my french) fucking amazing! It's quite something. All these little things that makes my Grell enjoyable. For me mainly.

I composed a little video. It's a bit lame but it gives you a look of my cosplay so far.



I've never been one for shopping for cosplay online. Because not only because of scammers, but because If I DID buy one off the net, I'd have a Grell costume like everyone else. With some cosplays you can't help it, because you may not have the skills like everone else. Or for the life of you, afford a sewing machine or even have access to one, so it's a bit difficult lol. But that goes into something else altogether so I'll leave it there ^^

On a minor note. Funny thought. William Spears with Adam West's cat launcher...And if you haven't seen Family Guy, you won't know XD "Pizza delivery man! Prepare to meet you maker, at the hands of my CAT LAUNCHER!" Adam West, you rule <3

Well finally got my Grell wig and am very happy with it ^^ I love it! I took a couple of photos of it already but my skin looks a bit bad. But I got one decent one ^^ So here's one of the wig and glasses too. God, I'm so proud of them ^^ For the actual day I dress as Grell, I may use reddish brown lip or eye liner to faintly draw into my eyebrows, because they seem a bit too dark :/ Who knows.. But the wig definately needs a fringe styled into it. No doubt.

Today has been a day where everything's got on top of me. And now..I feel more miserable than ever. I know there are people worse off in the world, but right now, i feel pretty bad. I think the only happiness i have is my boyfriend. And even that was threatened of being taken away from me. We havent been together long and got so much hassle when the news spread. But we didn't care lol. Other people are selfish. Surely if he is as bad as people say he is, why not let me make my own mistakes? Make me suffer on my own? Why not let me find out? Stop being ruse, interferring, and leave us alone. Sure you say, "It's because we care" or because of a jelous ex won't go away, and boasts nothing but the worst of them. Just let me enjoy whatever happiness I can have. Because for one with him, I AM happy. I've known him for 2 years, and I wouldn't change a thing about him. He is who he is, it's what I love about him. My mum says you can't love ANYONE at this stage. So what do we define as love? I know what it is. Not like some sort of mad crush. It's when you'll do everything in your power to make them happy. Respect, and trust. Even as a friend I was there for him as much as I could, I worried about him for personal reasons of his. At least he was honest. The other people can't hate him for being honest if he wasn't happy with the other girlfriends.

And then there is homelife. And my God it's bad. My 20 yr old sister is the most horrible person you can imagine. And it's true what mum says about her: She's false, plays games, and is so self-centred. I feel for my neice. I'm glad our mum isn't like Tasha. She is the one who makes our lives a living hell, and all I've been listening to is arguing from last night into all through today. Tasha is mostly dad unfortunately. He was a horrible, horrible man. Who would beat mum, even when she was pregnant with me. At 6 months, he knocked her to the ground and my uncle Robert saw it all. If she went into labour, i feel I may have died. I was a premature baby at 9 weeks. In and out of hospital, and he still made mum fear for her life. To me? He's not a dad. I'm happy enough not ever having reason to speak to him. So God forbid Tasha ever being born a boy. I am proud to say, I have none of him in me. Except some of my facial features. But I am my mother. It's weird looking back. Thinking that i was actually in that life once upon a time? It's no excuse. All of this is a fact, not a pathetic sob story, I assure you. But now, I see our dad in Tasha. His vile temper. She will become very unstuck...Probably.

They've only just gone out. Sometimes I wish I could die and be forgotten, I really do. I feel sick. My chest feels like it's caving in. I have no appetite and I want to cry. But I can't. I feel embarrassed even on my own. Like I'm not allowed.  Well, I am allowed to vent even just this once. I felt this was something to get off my chest. Sorry guys xxxx I love you all <3

I'm a bit stuck on boots for Grell for my Kuroshitsuji cosplay I'm working on. I've seen some various pairs and some nice ones, but I've narrowed them down.

One is a pair of red platforms like this. I'm a short person cosplaying a male character hahaha!

http://s196.photobucket.com/albums/aa21/Chelsefuss/?action=view&current=f0b1_1.jpg

I really like the look of these, but I've never worn platforms before. Anyone had any experiance with them? Or should I stick to lower heels? ^^

Friday
My jouney began at 2pm. I was rushing to make sausage sandwiches when the lads arrived. But not in car. Change of plans, but meh. My train ticket was paid for for my troubles. So Ryhce-fuhrer carried my musket and I dragged my suitcase to walk to pete's house to pick up his mech suit...Never again. We all had to carry it. And was so difficult. We said to him that he could build things as big as he wants...but we were never helping him ever again! Eventually we all met up with the rest and traveled to London by train. The amount of us was sheer epicness. Abi, Gary, April, Pete,Chay, Rhyce, Martin, Caroline, etc.

As soon as we got there and booked into our room, me and Chay got dressed as Rip and anderson And went out to greet other cosplayers. It was a nice, cold evening, even though I was already roasting from happiness. It was even better to be back with more people from May and more from Colchester that I could hang around with ^^ There was a lot of running and screaming involved XD

Saturday
I didn't take any pictures on Saturday, but I had only one mission. To find Linda Hamilton. And you know what? I DID! I qued with my slip to have a photo taken with her. She took one look at me and went, "WOOOOOOOOWWW!!!! How are you today!?" My heart was pounding and she was sooo friendly. This was the women from TERMINATOR for christ sake! Sarah Conner! Yeee~! She liked the musket. She said, "This girl is making me feel weak!" I look strange in the photo, but i will share it with you all at some point ^^ The belgian cosplayers, Dok & Seras were so nice to que with me. You two were so lovely~! And you both looked fantastic! Certainly the best Seras and defintaly the best Dok!XD I hope I wasn't too silly lol. I also saw a Borat. I offered him a pink waffer and helped film a sketch...So he likes me ^^ That night I went to watch FMA. We didn't get round to that. Instead, Ryhce hooked Pete's laptop to the internet and put up the hentai website. FMA, random other shite, and~ Those guys will NEVER see my Rip character the same way ever again. I just burried my head in the pillow X'D But there wasn't all about Hentai. we chilled out listening to rock and Nightwish, Played Magick, and ordered pizzas in the name of...Wolf Kimberly? X'D But FFS Tony, I'm never having spicy pizza again. I was running for the milk!AHHHH~!!! But when we returned to our room, the ones staying in Chay's room was Vergil Pete, Jonny, me, and Chay (Am I a guy or something?) I got double killed with their smeagal impressions when trying to sleep at 2am. So lucky I had the bed to myself at the time coz I was...ROLLING AROUND in it laughing! OMG I could'nt control myself for another 10 mintues o_O

Sunday
I decided to cosplay Rip again. I wasn't really ready for Grell to be honest. But all was good because i had Millenium CREW! The photos taken were...Unspeakable? So to speak? It involved a whip, and~ a "certain" Rip saying bend over, butter up, and prepare for penetration" I think I shocked Abi by saying that X'D Major whipped EVERYONE. I got my own back, however. Wahahaha~ I also got some pictures with the Dok too, mainly for Charito ^^ I know you LOVE the Dok <3 And we certainly love the fab Dok X'D Plus, photos are great memories :3 I often wonder what I'll think of myself, looking back at my expo photos when I'm 80 odd. Hung around with Millenium for a bit. Dok helped my find water, and the lined up for masquerade as me and Abi went to sit down ^^ Never watched masquerade before lol. It was so good. there were some truly EPIC entrys. My favourite were obviously Hellsing, but Lord Saron will always hold a place in my heart! XD Too bad i had to leave early. Had to be bk at the hotel by 5pm to leave. And...I'm not going to begin the journey back, for it was sheer hell.



This was my entry for the saturday for the NEO cosplay compition of cosplay ^^

I cannot believe that I've not dicovered him sooner! Grell Sutcliff from Kuroshitsuji. Basically, he is the parallel of Rip Van Winkle. Only the red edition with a chainsaw and male parts Ha Ha Ha!! Discovered him this week, been watching some of Kuroshitsuji, and er~ Love it :D So, I have been collecting parts for the cosplay if I pass them in charity shops.

This week, I managed to find a proper dress shirt...For £5! Some red & white ribbom even though it is diagonal (not correct, but hey). I already did a demo of the normal version (yes, he has 2 looks) and he is sooo funny! Clumsy and always wants to kill himself for doing things wrong XD But I think the most funny incident was finding the glam red glasses. First when I went into clairs I was very tempted to buy a leapard print pair of glasses and paint them with red nail varnish, but it felt like a tacky thing to do, so I decided to wait until my next appointment at the opticians lol. But when I went in there yesturday after hanging with friend, there were a pair or red glasses. THE ONLY ONES! *swipes* Hehehehehe... I think God has got off his cloud and is helping me with this a bit o_O

 

I'm still carrying on with Umah. It is 50% finnished. And before I start buying wigs and fabric for Gell and stuff, Umah is my main priority for October Expo. I have seen some really nice ponytail extensions. Nice thick, black ponytails down the back :) Because my natural hair is lank Ha Ha Ha! Also some platforms! I want at least some noticing hehe. Because I am so short ^_^ But I won't show any progress pictures yet. Too shy atm.

 

Something that me and Rhyce done in town while Martin was filming.

 

Okay, today was my photography exam (practical) But I also had an orthodontist appointment to have my braces tightened. So I took the morning off. My teacher rang me demanding where I was and I told him the story and hassled me when I was gonna come in. I had to after lunch because my orthodontis was far away. So did that, got to college and realised, Fuck. Forgot my prep work O_O Now I live 30 min walk away from college in town centre, but I sped home and got major stressed on how much time i wrasted. Got really worked up Etc =__=' Was horrible. But by the skin of my teeth manged to nearly complete the final board. It's simple but I don't care. I'm officially amazing for getting all that work typed. I could have collapsed XD The stress burnt all my energy out of me and my legs lol.

I'm just really glad the weekend here. I usually have peacful fridays. But I met Gary and we went to X-Treme and watched my 'Batalion' fight evil nazi Zombies. Speaking of which, I don't understand the zombie nazis in outpost. Seriously. But i will find them out soon enough.

I also altered my Rip Van blazer...Again. I know, I'm annoying XD;

Well, as some of you may know, there's a film coming out soon. And that film is Terminator Salvation. The 4th film.
I don't particulaly care if the CGI is the shiz, it looks bloody awful ;_; And I don't mean that as a cheesey responce, I mean, who am I to judge? I've never seen it. Well, not yet anyway. Thing is, they should have ended with the second one. Honestly. The 3rd one ruined the whole plot and totaly messed up. John Connor was a total twat XD (Sorry to the actor that played him) It makes me sad.

And not even Arnie is in this God-damn film!! He's a terrible actor but this is HIS signature role! WTF?!!! No astela vista baby?!!! T_T SOMEBODY HUG ME! And if this new guy who plays the Terminator does do that quote, I will open fire in the cinema...not literally!

On another note, if John conner knows to stop the Terminator so they don't send it back through time, John won't have to send the soldier back who will then ,in time, be his actual father?? O_O So, Will John cease to exist?

Since the reviews have been running for the last couple of days, most lessons have been cancelled. This is my favourite time XD My review went wicked ^_^ But that's boring XD It's given me chance to rest and catch up.

So Today, I went to take photos of the buildings of Colchester for my photography exam tomorow. I'm...going...to...die~ Andrew was REALLY hyper. He was jumping around making all sorts of strange noises. He was hilarious tho! But I eventually had to grab him by his blazer lapel like Doc did to Schrodinger XD;; "ANDREW! For God Sake SLOW DOWN!" I kept slowing the others down because I kept stopping to take photos on my SLR, Monny (yes, even my SLR has a name).

Well, after all that hard work was rewarded with cakes we got in town! Umm~ I even got the negatives developed :3 I got some lovely shots. Well, I like them a lot ^^

I also have a video of Rhyce declaring his hatred for elves and my God, it is priceless. This is also the guy that near strangled me when I was trying to tickle him XD

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UPaH4TtEe-E&feature=channel_page

Well, gents. First off, I love war. I should greet people with that phrase more often hehe :)
Mum came back from Thailand on Wednesday 4th March hence the photos. I thought the house was crowded before they left, but then it was too quiet. You get used to the movements even though that sounds strange. I don't care XD The house was soon hectic ^_^ "Chaos. Love it." I was lucky to have a suprise bought back for me...A yellow umbrella! Not even the shitty foldy types that blow back! >D Mum said it was only a cheap little something but, "Mum--I--I don't care! I love it!" *glomps the mother* XD; I wasn't expecting it ;__; She does like cosplay after all lol. Otherwise she wouldn't encourage me with those sort of pressies Hehe.

Yesturday on sunday, It was Tiger-Lily's christening. And being us, the church was semi-filled with BIKERS! A beautiful sight, but probably god-smacked the vicar. Ha ha! I thought I was going to burn when I stepped into the church. I told Paul (god-father and close family friend) this, and he just said, "Don't worry, I think we all did" >D But being in that church bought back a lot of old memories. The local church was in the area where I used to live as a kid. I hadnt been in there since...primary school? Nothing has changed much :) Not even the hyme books. It was a shame I couldn't remember the name and number of my favourite ^_^; Yeah, I went to a christain primary school, so every now and then we would come here. I couldn't remember the vicar, but he remembered me XD;; Tiger-Lily was very good :)
After, we came back to the pub to celebrate, and me being me, headed straight for the buffet XD "Okay, I'll have one of those, a few of those, all of them, thank you" ^_^ Then, "Drink please." :D (nothing alcholic)

I recieved my new umbrella this morning which I plan to use for my Rip Van Winkle cosplay from now on :) It's uber pretty, and is a vintage 1950-60's style. I'm just sick and tierd of the fold in umbrellas. I know Rip Van has a yellow parasol, but this was the nicest one I could find. Can you believe it? That plain yellow umbrellas are rare? XD Well, point handlle ones anyway XD I'm just sick of  the foldy ones. They're so weak against the wind XD So I don't know what to do with my old yellow one. I don't need it anymore. I may give it away to someone else hehe.  No point wrasting it XD

No, not Luke Valentine XD But must write--epic--day out!

Woke up at 6:47 am to catch a shower becuase I don't think I washed all the conditioner out from dying my hair black last night (doesnt look any different lol!) Got ready in Rip cosplay, but wasn't gonna bring new MDF musket today in case I got stoped in public. You only need pne person to then be armed by armed police hehe. Gary came over at 8:30 ish for us to walk in town. he ad most of his Code Giass cosplay underneath his clothes. But carrying round that bag must have been killer lol.

Eventually got to Liverpool street where we would meet Stacey and Pete XD Now, I had origanally said to Pete the night b4, on who saw each other first, they would glomp them and scream OM NOM NOM!!! to the top of their lungs...It was a draw XD;;

Met everyone at Leister Square and had litracy circle. Whoever held Gerald got to talk. Met a lot of great people ^^ We went to Trocadero (i think thts how its spelt lol) and played at the arcade! ^_^ I uber failed at the dance mat DDR I have no co-ordination whatsoever. But the biker games were very funny, but still failed! I must admitt, I did beat Gary at shot-put XD! And we got far on the "shoot em out" games XD I bought myself some pink yayahan cat ears and a deathnote >D

We then went for lunch at the chinese. We took up 2 big round tables lol Food was yummy and chaep considering it was london. But the paying at the end was uber hectic! Someone got a photo of me doing the OM NOM stance! XD That's where I got everyones MSN's down on a clean napkin ^^ The emperor taught us a chinese trick to make a star with cocktail sticks without glue O_O chinese manufactoring ^^ *hugs him!*

Trafalger Square was where we had our group photos. We had split up in 2groups and were supposed to meet bk there with the other group. Little did we know that they were only on the other side of the monument. I was funny watching ninjas climb on the statue lions. I remember shouting "I would love to join you on Aslan, but I don't like Narnia!!" XD! Pwnage. We waved to people on sight-seeing buses and a few took pictures and waved back. I think we became an attraction lol. However I could see an old guy cursing and pointing roughly in my dierction. Swastika DIDN'T go down well Ha ha ha!

Eventually me and Gary had to make a move bk to colchester. Sad to leave them, but I got a rose from today1 Thanks Gary...XD was very sweet of you ^^ I looked something like this on the way back home XD

Today was a peaceful Friday. Because I only have a double Art lesson in the morning and Photography at the end of the day ^^ I got there in a bad mood this morning and I didnt have time to sit down with friends like I do, and everyone was bumping into me. I would've exploded! >.< But my mood completely changed lol. I wore the wollen top that mum bought me back from Peterborough last night when she got her passport alterd. Nice little suprise and everyone really liked it ^^ I felt fashionble and 'conformed' for once XD My final piece for art is still not finnished yet. And it's only a self portrait combined with another image I sketched/inked. It's meant to be like Larry Rivers self portrait. So after today, I'll have to finnish that in my own time. I also scanned in 4 of my drawings in the college computer XD I'm such a pikey. It's only because my scanner don't work! XD
Photography is also on an up. My film actually came out this time. The first film I did was under exposed so the negs were almost clear :-(  And the second film didn't come out at all! Dx The only explanation the teacher could come up with was that the film slipped off, but it couldn't wind any more when it was finnished. But now on the third try, the photos came out well ^^ The unit is experimental so I'l be altering only one neg. So I can show different effects and compare them easier ^^ So I'll be doing that monday. The final board was due in today but the teacher was ok with that because he knew I had trouble. What a relief! Ha ha XD

VALKYRIE WAS AMAZING! Just had to get that off my chest XD Cruise was epic and Hitler was creepy. And the bomb specialist (cant remember his name) looks like my mum's tattooist O_O I also picked up my musket XD And spending the day with Stave and her dad was amazing :3 loved it ^^ This was last saturday ^^ The Sixthform was closed monday as I said in my DA journal here: http://obersturmfuhrer.deviantart.com/journal/22960877/  Hopefully there will be a lot of snow tonight like the weatherman forcasted. But I doubt it XD

The main thing I wanted to talk about was to say that my Jareth cosplay is 90% finnished. It's the magic dance outfit which I'll be wearing to the ball this month. And Abi will be my goblin queen for the evening since this WHOLE COSPLAY was inspired her XD One thing I know for sure....I will be caped in glitter. Thanx Abi.... XD;;

The cosplay is also a little customised. It's a little more gothic this time. Instead of grey leggings, I'm wearing black leggings with my cosplay boots from cosworx.com. They were originally for dawn Rip but it never made the outfit hehe. The poet shirt is also a veil mesh fabric... Very er...thin. But that's what the waistcoat's for :3 It has D-rings down it ^^ And I pikeyed the leather gloves from my sister. So far, it's looking fab, guys ^^

College & General:

Just feeling a little stressed today ha ha! XD I'm hoping to get into a new college this year, because the Sixthform's boring now. The only lessons I'm enjoying is A2 Art and Photography hehe. Other than that, I'm weighed down with Psychology, re-sitting GCSE Maths again! And Business Studies (supported) People seem to click with these subjects and I don't. I haven't got the head for thinking that far ahead. I'm more creative lol (apparently) So I will be going to the Institute for the Art foundation course. At least then Ill be able to get a part time job for the rest of the week ^^ I hope so, becuase of the recesion n all. But I am positive about the course :) Although I still need to order Expo tickets, so I'll do that in the next couple of weeks ^^ Chay's offered to give me a place in the hotel...FOR FREE! O_o So I said, no way! £20 at least! XD Awww, you're too kind. But it's lifted it off my shoulders :3 I'm not the richest person in the world ^^; 

Cosplay:

Other than college however, I had something made (not telling what it is though XD) and its taken over 3 fucking weeks! GAH! And it was going to be the highlight of this week :( Other than seeing Valkyrie with a great mate :3 (this saturday hopefully ^^) But you know what I mean. I've been looking forward to it and I can't see it properly until this Saturday.
  So many people are giving up cosplay, and it saddens me because it's a hobby I love so much. And I love to see people to enjoy it too. I know it can cost a lot, but people make the mistake of planning too many, working on each of them bit by bit and then loosing motivation one by one. I almost got carried away with that, but now I've narrowed it down to Rip Van. Even though she is being inproved all the time, but either way, she's basicly complete. My cardboard musket broke. Guess it was a sign ^^ TO GET A PROPER ONE! Well... we will see, won't we? ^^ Jareth is almost done too ^^ Because all I need now is the disco wig I SAW in the shop hehe. I'm dressing as Jareth for Danni's cosplay ball in Febuary, as I promised Abi xD What have I done?! Ha ha ha! Also, my friend Luna has inspired me to do a Beyblade cosplay. So I will be cosplaying Mariah for May Expo 09 Sunday. I hope so ^^ I'm well up for it. I just hope I make a great Mariah. I always thought she was really cool back when I watched Beyblade XD Been ages since.

Well, I'll finnish on that note ^^ There's too much to tell  XD